Friday, July 27, 2012

She Shares Friday

I started a new journal this week.  Which means I've actually been pretty good about keeping up with my daily devotions lately.  Maybe I shouldn't say this, but there's something about writing in a cute new journal that makes devotions a little more enticing than usual.

I gotta confess.... I've been struggling with the new #SheReadsTruth plan a little bit.  Taking a good chunk of time out of your day to just sit still, be quiet, talk to the Lord, and then listen for His quiet whispers.... it's not that easy.  I've been sort of procrastinating on it and as a result, I've been feeling real "stale" the past couple of weeks in my relationship with the Lord.  I feel like I'm not connecting; like I'm missing something.  Probably because I am missing something. (hello!)  I need to be connecting with the Lord each day.  And I know that.  It's just hard sometimes.

So this new journal has been helping me a little bit.  I've been writing out my prayers to help me stay focused.   I'm still struggling with the "being quiet and listening" part.  That time always seems to be the same time that I start thinking of all the other things I "need" to do that day.  Then I rationalize that if I just do them "real quick", I will be able to focus better for prayer time.  And we both know.... that list never ends.  Hence, the procrastinating.  I'm hoping that writing about this today will hold me a little bit more accountable and be the nudge I need to stop putting it off.  But I also know I need to just be disciplined and make it a priority.


I've also asked Doad to start praying with me before bed each night.  My hope is that praying together will be a bigger priority for both of us - and maybe doing it together regularly will help make it easier for me to do on my own too.  It is so motivating to me when I see my husband leading me by example.  He takes such good care of me physically, financially, emotionally, but it is by far the most attractive to me when I see the way he takes care of me spiritually, especially by praying for me and with me.

So that's where I'm at this week.  I'm looking forward to these last couple days of our Prayer study.  Not because I want it to end, but because I get another chance to maybe hear some of the lessons I've been missing out on the past few weeks.


Thanks for letting me share. :)


Anonymous said...

I totally understand what you mean about sitting and being quiet! My brain and the enemy do not like quiet and always seem to find some way of distracting me. And a lot of times it's with good things! This morning it was a text message from my am I supposed to ignore that? But in reality, a text message will wait and I desperately need to spend that time being quiet in the presence of the Lord.

P.S. - Your words about your husband are beautiful. I love when women publicly praise their men, and I'm sure he appreciates it to.

Jessica Smith said...

Aw, Thanks for your kind words, Rachel. :) It is ironic how many text messages you instantly receive the moment you sit down to pray. That's one of the reasons I appreciate the community of #SheReadsTruth and their accountability so much!

leelee said...

I have been struggling to follow the plan too. Somehow reading the verses on my computer do not sink into my heart as they should.

Jessica Smith said...

Hmmm, maybe reading them out loud would help? Or in a different version? Sometimes if I'm having trouble understanding a certain verse I switch to the Message version - helps it make a little more sense. :)

Ellie Heidel said...

love the journal! I will pray for you too - I really like the instagram #shereadstruth community. I've friended quite a few women from across the globe and it's so motivating to see their pictures everyday and share my own as well. It's fascinating to see where these women live & how they study God's work (i.e. early before the sun rises and before their kids wake up, with coffee, with tea, with breakfast, in a coffee shop, ect.) Love you Jess! & So thankful for you! :)

Hannah Odarve said...

Yep. This plan is indeed a challenge. Thank God for the inputs of the wonderful ladies in the daily reading. I got ideas from there when I struggle. Amazing community!

I also love praying with my Fiance. I love it too when he prays for me especially when I am feeling down.

Dropping by from #SheShares! (I'm entry No. 5)
Love and Hugs to you from the Philippines!!!


Jessica Smith said...

Thanks for your prayers, Ellie! It is so encouraging and great to know you are benefitting from the community too. :) Glad to hear the ways you are being encouraged by it. :) Love you!!

And, Hannah, thanks for the love! :) Glad to hear I'm not the only one struggling :) And even happier that the #SheReadsTruth community has been a help for us both. :) Love and hugs right back to you! :)